New Dawn, New Day, New Life

Since beginning my quest for enlightenment (or, as I call it, relief from life's pain) many years ago,  I've come across certain ideas held out as truths, several times, in different ways, from different schools of thought.  They were just words. Abstract concepts, beyond my grasp, pretty words, based on hope. I wanted to believe them, I just couldn't feel it. But I didn't scoff, I journeyed on.  I acknowledged that I was just so battle-scarred I couldn't feel much except pain. Soldier on, I told myself, what alternative did I have with this time on earth? Somehow I had it in my head, or heart, that there was something better than what I was experiencing so far. And more recently, every now and then, a little light came through.  Signs that I was going in the right general direction, at least.

Two years ago, I reached a plateau and have begun to "enjoy" the quest. Oh, level ground is rather disconcerting for me and there are still dark passages around, but for the most part the fears have quieted and I breathe easier now. But I still couldn't say I lived a joyous life.  Now here's the miracle.  After listening to Kathryn Perry's teleconference this recent Wednesday, those truths that have eluded me for years, suddenly became very real.  Finally.  At long last (you have no idea.) What blessed relief! Alleluia!

  

We are divine beings.  We are here to experience life. We are creating all the time.  We create our lives by the feelings we get from our thoughts and beliefs. 

In my mind I can hear Asara Lovejoy saying, isn't it funny how things become real and clear after you work with the One Command?  I feel so vindicated. My reprieve has finally come. I'm free and I know it and I know what to do now.

Since Wednesday morning, I know deep within me exactly how I was creating my life.  I am always re-living, re-generating some very basic core ideas that I came to identify as "me." The constant feelings that I harbor on a moment-to-moment basis, day in and day out are the stuff my life is made of.  These ideas and their corresponding feelings were picked up, carried, expounded on, throughout my life battle/journey. They have been with me since infancy, probably longer.  I created these and my life as it was.  I FEEL it in the fiber of my being. 

My next revelation was, why torture myself and continue with the same old issues and outcomes over and over? What's the use of staying stuck? Of thinking the same thoughts and feeling the same way minute by minute, year after year.  And then expect a different result from this same pattern? To paraphrase Albert Einstein or Rita Mae Brown: How insane is that?

So I have latched on, cling for dear life, to the few better-feeling ideas I have.  These are my dreams, my fairy-tale hopes.  I am happy (and surprised) that I have any!  So this is the new stuff with which I am creating my life.  I will continue moment-by-moment to re-live and re-generate these new ideas and feelings and with the help of the One Command, avoid a return to the old ones.  

And I have to ponder Asara's observation: I never was able to do this before using the One Command.  Why not soldier on and explore this yourself?  

Peace and Love to you.

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